Self-Portrait at Forty-One

Adam Clay

Through a blank slate of feelings,
I ran miles wondering if it rained
or if it was dew when I stepped
out to light this morning. How
to know when I’ll feel like my
old self or maybe life’s just a new
click of urge and want, the buzz
of an airplane I saw and a stalk
of bamboo split near some
graffiti unreadable. I’d like
to remember today
even though it feels pretty
ordinary. Some purple patch
of wildflowers. The mystery
of everything sudden.